I know that this blog has been all about Paris since I’ve been home. But I've been so busy this week and last that i haven't had a chance to have some alone time with my camera.


These photos are my favourite from our short getaway.
1. Me in a cafe that we ended up going in to whilst lost!
2. The thickest and tastiest hot chocolate i have ever had. I am craving one right now.
3. Glen in the same cafe as mentioned before
4. Mr Cigarette
5. The view from the most amazing park that the lovely Elisabelle recommended.

This week has been so long i've become really deflated and whilst feeling sorry for my self last night I came upon a picture in a gallery with the quote 'every cloud has a silver lining' it instantly lifted my spirits. I hope you have a great weekend what ever you get up to.

feeling blue

I'm procrastinating a lot.

I have a half packed bag sat in the corner of my room,

I have cried 3 times today

and I desperately need to get some sleep.

So today my house mate

{who has become so much more these past few months}

told me she's moving out,

I then sat there with her and my other house mate

(who's moving too!)

sobbing.

These girls are like sisters to me, i see them everyday,

I moan to then, get annoyed with them, and borrow their clothes, but I also laugh with them, share secrets with them and in this time, they have become my best friends.

Cat is leaving for Glasgow and Marie is moving back to Paris.

I hate change at the best of times, but this really hit me hard

and I don't know how much more of living in a house share i can take.

Meeting new people, starting over again.

I really want Glen and I to move out and move in to this

love nest that I've been dreaming about for the past 3 years,

but I'm not financially ready and the truth is, i'm not sure when i will be.

I'm off to Uganda on Thursday, and when i get home i will be faced with two new house mates, one of my house mates moving out and have to get a job.

My face is coming out in a rash just thinking about it.

I wish Glen wasn't working nights all this week and creeping in at 7 am every morning, i need him to talk to in bed and cuddle up to.

I'm not sure how i'm going to manage 3 weeks with out him.

Thank you for letting me rant, I really needed it tonight. I promise the next time I type

i'll be a bit happier!

a little about moi

I've been working long hours this week and will be for the rest of the month. I've been cranky because of this and I'm so tired i can't think properly.

I feel like I'm working so hard and putting in so much effort and not getting any satisfaction out of it.

but.............

I'm really not sure what i want to do, and that's okay with me. i like not having plans. i find that life never goes the way i expected it to, and as a result it's made me a lot happier.

at the age of 18 i travelled around the world on my own. i met so many wonderful people, that shaped me into the person i am now.

I went to university to study publishing at 19 - i only lasted 3 months. i hated it and i knew it wasn't for me instantly. it took 3 months to get the courage to admit i wasn't happy.

My sister found me work experience in t.v at 19 and I've been working in the industry ever since. it found me, more than i went looking for it. it came at the perfect time.

I met Glen from moving in to a house share with friends from work. We were friends first and then it just happened....... we feel madly in love with each other.

I have always felt that there was something missing in my life which i couldn't explain. not even to myself. i found what was missing when i went to Malawi last year.

I didn't go looking for any of these things to happen, but they did and it's made me the person i am now. i am so grateful for all of these adventures that I've experienced. I am a nicer, brighter, happier person because of it.

when times are hard and i can't face getting out of bed and seeing the world, i have to remind myself what i have achieved, and still can.

ummmm

This time last year i had just come back from Malawi and Glen was taking me to Paris for my birthday. I'm in a dark place in my head today. someone said some hurtful things to me last week and i haven't been able to erase it out of my mind.  i just don't understand why people have to be so nasty and comment on other peoples life choices. i'm also feeling run down from work and a little confused if i should keep working in this industry. My friends are talking me out for a early birthday dinner and i'm really hoping it cheers me up. 

i hate feeling like this.

I wish upon a star..................

I wish I didn't feel guilty about being me.

I wish I didn't feel so jealous of others

I wish I had more courage to do things I wouldn't normally do. 

I wish all my friends lived on the same road as me and we could have tea parties all week long. 

I wish my Mum and Sister lived closer to me.

I wish I didn't feel sad sometimes for no reason at all. 

I wish I didn't have to apply for a job today!

I wish I knew what I wanted to do in life. 

Image found here